What is love?
Seriously, can anyone tell me? Because I always try to deny that I’m in love if I feel something for someone. I would say, “No, this can’t be love. I’m just crazy bout him. That’s it. Love wouldn’t feel like this.” Then tell me, how does it feel like? What are the symptoms?
Being unable to concentrate? Being unable to think about anything else but that particular person? Being silly? Being happy for unexplained matters? Being sad for nothing? Does it feel like eating chocolate as your appetizer and having cheese cake topped with vanilla ice cream as your main dish and then finishing it with chilli as your desert? Very sweet and addictive at the beginning. Making you wanting more and more. Then it gets sweeter and sweeter, but then it gets too sweet, too intense, too much sugar involved. At the end, your tears shed, because it’s so spicy, it’s too hot, it makes you cry. It breaks your heart.
Is that it?
Does it always end like that? I wonder.
I read something the other day. It says, one can’t love and be wise. I must admit that it’s damn true. Upps… did I just proclaim my self being in love? I guess so… Gosh, I guess I just did.
I can’t make reasonable decisions. I know that this is wrong. I know that this is stupid. I know that this is a waste of time. I know that it will break my heart one day. And one thing for sure, I know that I will remember it for the rest of my life. And that’s what I’m afraid of.
So what on earth am I doing?
I’m in love.
I love him. What is it about him that you love? I keep on asking myself that question. And every time I give myself the same answer. I have no idea.
This guy makes me laugh, cry, smile, mad at the same time. He, who is really, really not my type, but then able to touch my heart. This naughty-stubborn-selfish-surgeon-gonna-be, steals my heart with his silliness, stupidity, being-irresponsible.. I love everything that he hates, hate everything that he loves. Gosh he's such an annoying guy. I hate him for what he did to me. I hate him for the things that he said. I hate him for who he is. But then, doesn’t the greatest hate spring from the greatest love? I'm still amazed until right now. I don’t understand. But then, can anyone understand love? Again, I wonder.
No, it’s still the biggest mystery of life.
Jesus understood it. The whole bible talks about love. It’s the longest love letter ever written. He loves us. Even though we hurt Him. We deny Him. We forget about Him. And yet, He gave His live for us. Isn’t that the greatest love of all?
Mother Theresa understood it. Mahatma Gandhi understood it. Siddhartha Gautama understood it.
Can you understand that? I still can’t.
Its just something that I wrote last year... bout my feelings. I guess I have the answers now... exactly as everyone predicted. Nothing to regret, just face it. Still trying to believe that time is the best medicine to heal every wound... Lord help me, I just hope it works..
Seriously, can anyone tell me? Because I always try to deny that I’m in love if I feel something for someone. I would say, “No, this can’t be love. I’m just crazy bout him. That’s it. Love wouldn’t feel like this.” Then tell me, how does it feel like? What are the symptoms?
Being unable to concentrate? Being unable to think about anything else but that particular person? Being silly? Being happy for unexplained matters? Being sad for nothing? Does it feel like eating chocolate as your appetizer and having cheese cake topped with vanilla ice cream as your main dish and then finishing it with chilli as your desert? Very sweet and addictive at the beginning. Making you wanting more and more. Then it gets sweeter and sweeter, but then it gets too sweet, too intense, too much sugar involved. At the end, your tears shed, because it’s so spicy, it’s too hot, it makes you cry. It breaks your heart.
Is that it?
Does it always end like that? I wonder.
I read something the other day. It says, one can’t love and be wise. I must admit that it’s damn true. Upps… did I just proclaim my self being in love? I guess so… Gosh, I guess I just did.
I can’t make reasonable decisions. I know that this is wrong. I know that this is stupid. I know that this is a waste of time. I know that it will break my heart one day. And one thing for sure, I know that I will remember it for the rest of my life. And that’s what I’m afraid of.
So what on earth am I doing?
I’m in love.
I love him. What is it about him that you love? I keep on asking myself that question. And every time I give myself the same answer. I have no idea.
This guy makes me laugh, cry, smile, mad at the same time. He, who is really, really not my type, but then able to touch my heart. This naughty-stubborn-selfish-s
No, it’s still the biggest mystery of life.
Jesus understood it. The whole bible talks about love. It’s the longest love letter ever written. He loves us. Even though we hurt Him. We deny Him. We forget about Him. And yet, He gave His live for us. Isn’t that the greatest love of all?
Mother Theresa understood it. Mahatma Gandhi understood it. Siddhartha Gautama understood it.
Can you understand that? I still can’t.
Its just something that I wrote last year... bout my feelings. I guess I have the answers now... exactly as everyone predicted. Nothing to regret, just face it. Still trying to believe that time is the best medicine to heal every wound... Lord help me, I just hope it works..
(ditulis oleh Sarah J Girsang, dipost di Facebook pada tanggal 6 Oktober 2009, 10:02 PM WIB. tulisan ini disalin atas izin dari penulis)
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